Sunsets

I was diligently backup-ing  the photos in my phone to the computer, as my phone was rather laggy already, plus I am just too paranoid that what if anything happens and I did not back up my photos?! iPhone doesn't has a memory card as external storage. I spent hours of sorting out pictures into different folders. I admit I was slow as I need to decide on which picture goes into which folder (selfie folder, event folder or random folder), also I did take time to look back what had happened for the past one year. This sound like its in December 2015 already (it will soon).

While transferring photos, I realize I have a number of sunset pictures, as studying in Sabah the most often thing to do is to go and watch the sunset. I go watch when you have friends or family from Penisular that comes over, I go watch when you go for a one day outing with friends,  I go watch when I need a break from the hustle and bustle of life.

So here it is, so collection of my sunst photos. I've deleted some though.

It's been two years, and I have two more years to go. I can't believe that people around me are graduating next year. And next year at this day, I have to be prepared for a different university life.

sorry for the tears shed

It feels like writing a traveller's diary. How it feels to be away from home, to be far away from the family that is so dear to me, friends that I can count on and place that I am familiar with. I know it has been almost 2 years studying away from home (going back every half a year though), but it does not mean that I am immune to that.

Yesterday as I was scrolling through Instagram, saw a dear friend wrote this: 'I rly am horrible at letting ppl go...'. I feel I can relate to it. I have been  easily attached to people around, people that have deeply impacted my life, people that are precious in my life. I admit I have the fear of people leaving or perhaps me leaving them.

Same goes to my family. As I was planning with my siblings on what to do and where to go on Mother's Day, I was struck as there's so little I can do. I can't be physically there with my mum. I teared. I admit that I have been really bust to even post a card back, or buy something online for my mum, but I just feel that nothing beats being by her side.

As I called my mum yesterday, after wishing her, I cried, I could not hold back any more. I can feel that she too is very sad and close to tears at the other side of the phone. How I wish I can be back there to celebrate Mothers' Day with her, celebrate her birthday with her and also other occasions with the family. There is just so much that I wish to, only if I am with them...physically. 

I don't mind being labelled as one that misses home, reliable and dependent. I don't feel the need to hide my feeling of missing home. I just can't wait to go back home to celebrate each occasion with them.

Just to say, another person will be leaving my life in a month's time. Ain't easy.

it's been a long time

It's been a long time, real long time since I've pen down my thoughts. I have been reading other people's blog and also pop by mine once in a while to recall what have happened in the past. Putting down my thoughts here has always helped me to move forward and after some time I look back at my post, I'll realise how much I've grown and how much grace and mercy given to me in my life.

Today is a rather free day for me. It has been pretty busy and hectic for the past few weeks, especially the past one week that I seldom am at home besides the night time. Being out from home for more than 15 hours is a norm. 

This morning, I woke up rather early, about 9 ish. Then I start to get things moving so not to waste time. I've learnt to become as productive as I can. To not waste time and laze around. Always list down the things to do, even the tiny weensy things so that I will not forget or miss a thing. (I tend to be forgetful recently)

Loving to spend some alone time where I can do things I want, sit down, not talking to anybody, not needing to reply anyone. The time alone is somehow refreshing, for me at least. Then I get very happy to have a day all to myself.

I'll try my best to update whenever I can, to pen down the thoughts running in my head.