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Ever when through a season when you don't what where are you? I've asking myself this question frequently recently. I felt kind of, I lost myself? The feeling of insecure, the feeling of where are the people I can depend on?, the feeling of #foreveralone, the feeling of not knowing where is my direction.

I've been feeling mixed up. I don't know how worth it I am. I always need people to assure me. I always wanted someone who I can just call up in the middle of the night where I can't sleep, or someone who is a call away when I need to talk, and a shoulder to lean on when I need. 

Yes, definitely I know God is always there, where I can always depend and turn to Him in times of troubles. The unconditional love, unfailing love. 

Have been reflecting on myself these few days. I don't know how to put myself into words. I need to search back for the JOEY LEE. The one that I'm familiar and comfortable with. 

Realize I'm confused with what I want. Am I an entrusted person? Am I good enough? Am I the one that I 

should be.

I don't know. I just need time. I just need the him or the her to talk to. I need Him!! 

In order to have an awesome 2012, I must be strong.