We all carry these things inside that no one else can see. 

They hold us down like anchors, they drown us out at sea.

I’m so tired.

But not the kind of tired sleep fixes.

I’m just tired.

I’m worn. 

Expectations are the root to all heartaches.

You start to get hurt the moment you begin to care

You do a lot of thinking 

and it's what kills you

wish

I'm sorry

mixed

Ever when through a season when you don't what where are you? I've asking myself this question frequently recently. I felt kind of, I lost myself? The feeling of insecure, the feeling of where are the people I can depend on?, the feeling of #foreveralone, the feeling of not knowing where is my direction.

I've been feeling mixed up. I don't know how worth it I am. I always need people to assure me. I always wanted someone who I can just call up in the middle of the night where I can't sleep, or someone who is a call away when I need to talk, and a shoulder to lean on when I need. 

Yes, definitely I know God is always there, where I can always depend and turn to Him in times of troubles. The unconditional love, unfailing love. 

Have been reflecting on myself these few days. I don't know how to put myself into words. I need to search back for the JOEY LEE. The one that I'm familiar and comfortable with. 

Realize I'm confused with what I want. Am I an entrusted person? Am I good enough? Am I the one that I 

should be.

I don't know. I just need time. I just need the him or the her to talk to. I need Him!! 

In order to have an awesome 2012, I must be strong.