Decided

I took me a long long time to decide what to write on my very FIRST post. 

Tried a few times but then cancelled the whole post, because I wasn't satisfied with it. 

Today, I went to Kg. Bakok (orang asli ministry of my church). 

After going there for so many times, I can say, this is the best trip, 

and I had a wonderful and awesome experience up there. PTL! 

I was actually supposed to go up and share a testimony to the orang asli.

During the praise and worship, I really felt the presence of the HS moving. 

This makes me want to share my testimony here as well.

Me, going through so much of pain, suffering, rejection, low self-esteem, 

emotionally and spiritually down. is not easy at all. 

It's so hard to go through it, especially at this point in my life, a beauty that teenagers want. 

Yes, there are times where I wanted to give up, but what can I do? 

There's always the flare up and recovering stage these few years.

 But, God never failed me. 

I can declare that, if I wasn't a Christian, I might have collapsed and breakdown emotionally. 

It is God who was always by my side encouraging me and gave me strength. 

Definitely, my parents did encouraged me. In God, I find peace and joy. 

I always live by clinging on to His promise that I will be healed one day, a COMPLETE healing! 

That's His promise for me. 

No matter what happens, His promise remains. He will never forsake me. 

His grace is enough for me.

 He knows how much I can take it, and everything He has is the best for me. 

God knows.

 Despite all these, there's something I learnt today, after sharing so many times of this testimony.

After all, it's not how good is my condition today compared to yesterday. 

It's the amount of  faith that I have in God now. 

It's the strength He gave me to go through everything.

It's the promise that is to be fulfilled that I still cling on to.

It's the prayers of people around.

It's the path God went through with me, never leaving me alone.

It's the moulding process.

It's because I serve and trust a Living God!

All I can say is, I love You.

It's because of this,

I'm meant-to-be-precious in God's eyes.