I took me a long long time to decide what to write on my very FIRST post.
Tried a few times but then cancelled the whole post, because I wasn't satisfied with it.
Today, I went to Kg. Bakok (orang asli ministry of my church).
After going there for so many times, I can say, this is the best trip,
and I had a wonderful and awesome experience up there. PTL!
I was actually supposed to go up and share a testimony to the orang asli.
During the praise and worship, I really felt the presence of the HS moving.
This makes me want to share my testimony here as well.
Me, going through so much of pain, suffering, rejection, low self-esteem,
emotionally and spiritually down. is not easy at all.
It's so hard to go through it, especially at this point in my life, a beauty that teenagers want.
Yes, there are times where I wanted to give up, but what can I do?
There's always the flare up and recovering stage these few years.
But, God never failed me.
I can declare that, if I wasn't a Christian, I might have collapsed and breakdown emotionally.
It is God who was always by my side encouraging me and gave me strength.
Definitely, my parents did encouraged me. In God, I find peace and joy.
I always live by clinging on to His promise that I will be healed one day, a COMPLETE healing!
That's His promise for me.
No matter what happens, His promise remains. He will never forsake me.
His grace is enough for me.
He knows how much I can take it, and everything He has is the best for me.
God knows.
Despite all these, there's something I learnt today, after sharing so many times of this testimony.
After all, it's not how good is my condition today compared to yesterday.
It's the amount of faith that I have in God now.
It's the strength He gave me to go through everything.
It's the promise that is to be fulfilled that I still cling on to.
It's the prayers of people around.
It's the path God went through with me, never leaving me alone.
It's the moulding process.
It's because I serve and trust a Living God!
All I can say is, I love You.
It's because of this,
I'm meant-to-be-precious in God's eyes.
