wishing each of you from the bottom of my heart

have a great one :)

tired

I don't know why

I feel I'm just stuck somewhere

Or maybe nowhere

I feel lost

Stagnant

Not moving forward

No where to go.

I'm tired of people telling me

I CAN DO IT!!

when I can't

but,

Yes, I'm really trying

I tried.

I'm tired

Maybe, I should just try harder.

I admit I'm not really in the mood, can't get hyped up.

No reasons.

Questioned by myself and others.

No answer.

Perhaps, I'm not accepting my own answer because I want to try harder

I don't know, I'm tired.

I need rest.

Not physical, but mental and emotional.

Despite all these,

I'll keep putting my trust in God

A Thankful Heart

I decided to write have a series of 'A Thankful Heart'

Specially dedicated to those who've

sowed into my life

impacted me in some ways

been there for me in good and bad times

lend me their shoulders 

spend time hearing my problems

helped me in a way or other

You! Might be one of them :)

Reflection

Sometimes, I wish someone would tell me what type of person am I. So that I am able to reflect upon my good and bad side, and improve better.

Live life to it's fullest

you people

I want to thank God for all those blessings in my life

those people who are always there to cheer me up

those people who took care of me so well, so kind to me

those people who loved me so so much

those people who'd spend their time to hear my problems

those people who are always at the door waiting for me ti run to them in times of troubles

those people who remembered whatever I've said

those people who've helped me grow spiritually

those people who are encouraging enough

those people who understands me

those provisions in my life

and I know,

there's more than that

Daddy's Love

I really couldn't fathom Daddy's love for me

He loves me more than I do

He loves me more than I could understand

He loves me before I came to this earth

HE LOVES ME

His love is

Unconditional

Unfailing

Unstoppable

Unshakable

Unchangeable

HE LOVES ME

He loves you too

I love you, Daddy

<3

那些年， 我们一起追的女孩

最近才读了这本书 - 九把刀著

这本书真的非常有意思， 蕴藏着不同的情绪

在青春时期，中学生涯里头的恋爱趣事

很值得一看

*推荐*

很期待看这故事的电影！

女主角 陈妍希 很美，

男主角 柯震东 又帅

*期待*

有几句真的让我留下深刻的印象：

常常听人家说啊，恋爱最美好的是暧味的时候 - 陈妍希

我超同意的， 就真的很真实。往往在两人在一起之前，都是那些暧味的事情把两人的关系拉

近， 更加爱， 更加珍惜， 更加想保护及为对方付出更多。就是这些暧味的时候，让人最感动。 

  放弃很苦，真的很苦。苦到我完全想象不到任何比喻去装载它。

这句也令我回想起我一直坚持着的，很想放弃，但不够勇气，明知道会很痛，很伤， 却很矛盾， 不知该如何是好。坚持？放弃？

恋爱除了运气，还有更多的努力填补其中，充满汗水、泪水的光泽与气味。

        所以爱情的姿态才会如此动人。
        没有人可以替你定义你的爱情。
        星座专家去死。
        答客问专栏作家去死。
        所有拼命想告诉你何时该谈恋爱何时不该谈恋爱的关心魔人，去死。
        勇敢相信自己的嗅觉，谈一场属于青春的爱情吧！

我不敢完全相信这一段话，因为太相信自己直觉却没思前想后往往会造成很大的伤害。 对，爱情是需要很多很多的努力，付出，牺牲， 但只要那一个人是值得，那就没得好计较了。   所以爱情才那么伟大啊，让许多人都完全投入，无法把自己抽出。但爱情的却能改变一个人，让人幸福，满足

10 things recently

1. Exam stress

2. Preparing his present

3. Reflect about the past

4. Twitted more than Facebook

5. Frustrated by spot-checks

6. Enjoy talking to M

7. Lack of afternoons nap

8. Wants to change the class seating

9. Can't wait to bake

10. Growing horizontally

I need You, Lord

in every area of my life

wedding song

Listen!

Nice?

I would say it's awesomely beautiful

I just can't help but just listen to it again and again

It's so soothing, so loving, awww <3

Imagine the right one singing to my dad, or even on the wedding day

I super love the line 'I'm gonna marry your princess, and make her my queen'

*takes a deep breath* aww...

I just fell in love with this song

The lyrics is so so true

Where love covers everything

The agape love

To love for the rest of our life

Giving each other our best

Being there for each other

Sacrificing for each other

Respect each other

Responsible for each other

The guy I want  does not need to be the cutest guy nor handsomest guy on planet,

 but will stand behind me no matter what. 

His personality will always be the best of the bunch

Most of all, one that loves God and fear God

"Love is not just a feeling. You may feel hungry, angry, anxious, shy, sad, etc but they won't last long; 

feelings will go away sooner or later. 

Instead, love is a DECISION. You'd decide to love, to care, to tolerate, to share, and to listen to your partner, etc.

That's why relationships can and should last long, "till death do us apart". 

Because love is NOT just a feeling. It is much more than that."

-unknown

I'll wait patiently,

for He will provide

#trustandhavefaith

cheers, joey

It has been tough

Still, I have the Man upstairs who I can cling on, depend on

No matter what, He's there for me

ILY, J

Every time

Every time I read our old conversations, I realize how close we used to be

Every time I look back at those photos, I realize how happy I was

Every time I look back whatever I've done, I realize how much I gave in without expecting anything in return

Every time I look back at the place where we used to sit together, I realize how time really flies

Every time I look back at the presents for your birthday, I realize how much I want to make your every birthday memorable

Every time I look back at your writing, I realize how much time I've spent staring at your writing

Every time I look back at our past, I realize how much I love you

September

(not in chronological order)

1. Y:Fusion Poolside Party + Zhen Yie's Baptism

group photo

awesome committees

Congrats, girl :)

2. TVB artists (Kate Tsui and Ron Ng) with Mich

went there by 6.30pm

Kate was beautiful

3. McDonald's study date

sexay people <3

4. Muet

5. Research

I came to found out that there are people who goes McD everday!

6. Merdeka Class Decoration - First Prize

I ♥ Malaysia

I'm placed here for a reason

I thank God that I live in Malaysia

Though there are things that are not right/good

Nonetheless, Malaysia is a very blessed land

Blessed with resources. Blessed with multiple race

Free from natural disasters. 

God is sovereign in this nation

Faith 

those days

I miss those days where i enjoy sitting on the swing

Swinging as high as I could

Like nobody's business

Apologies for the late post

Was just too busy plus not in a mood

There is just too much to talk about...

Things that happened recently

(in random order)

1. Preparation of Rev. Joyce's Scrapbook

2. Rev. Joyce - Night of Recognition and Honour

3. Leadership Handover Service

4. Leaving of dear Shan Hoe

5. Melissa jie's birthday surprise

6. Bethany Leaders Retreat

(will blog more on this)

7. Sleepover at Dee's place

8. Australians that visited our school

9. Cookie Monster --> Snow White

10. Skyping with <3

Gift from God

I really thank God for sending you into my life

That I have a sis-in-Christ to stand by my side

Understands how I feel,

Listening to my problems.\,

Sharing my struggles.

I feel so comfortable sharing and talking to you

There's no need to hide

But to be my true self

I'm so glad to have you as a great friend

I want to appreciate you and you're just more than a best friend to me

Looking forward

to each day 

we can talk like

nobody's business

Spectacles

Source: Tumblr

Looking at this picture

It reminds me of how I look at or judge a person sometimes

We tend to judge a person by what people say or what we see outwardly

Whether is by the appearance, actions or what day say

Through this picture, I come to a point of realization

We always see things though a spectacles

Maybe we should take down our specs

So that we are able to see clearly and a different perspective

Lesson learnt.

Decided

I took me a long long time to decide what to write on my very FIRST post. 

Tried a few times but then cancelled the whole post, because I wasn't satisfied with it. 

Today, I went to Kg. Bakok (orang asli ministry of my church). 

After going there for so many times, I can say, this is the best trip, 

and I had a wonderful and awesome experience up there. PTL! 

I was actually supposed to go up and share a testimony to the orang asli.

During the praise and worship, I really felt the presence of the HS moving. 

This makes me want to share my testimony here as well.

Me, going through so much of pain, suffering, rejection, low self-esteem, 

emotionally and spiritually down. is not easy at all. 

It's so hard to go through it, especially at this point in my life, a beauty that teenagers want. 

Yes, there are times where I wanted to give up, but what can I do? 

There's always the flare up and recovering stage these few years.

 But, God never failed me. 

I can declare that, if I wasn't a Christian, I might have collapsed and breakdown emotionally. 

It is God who was always by my side encouraging me and gave me strength. 

Definitely, my parents did encouraged me. In God, I find peace and joy. 

I always live by clinging on to His promise that I will be healed one day, a COMPLETE healing! 

That's His promise for me. 

No matter what happens, His promise remains. He will never forsake me. 

His grace is enough for me.

 He knows how much I can take it, and everything He has is the best for me. 

God knows.

 Despite all these, there's something I learnt today, after sharing so many times of this testimony.

After all, it's not how good is my condition today compared to yesterday. 

It's the amount of  faith that I have in God now. 

It's the strength He gave me to go through everything.

It's the promise that is to be fulfilled that I still cling on to.

It's the prayers of people around.

It's the path God went through with me, never leaving me alone.

It's the moulding process.

It's because I serve and trust a Living God!

All I can say is, I love You.

It's because of this,

I'm meant-to-be-precious in God's eyes.